The Loner

I touch her cautiously, carefully
As if for the first time,
Sensing her heat, her texture.
I embrace her
Softly at first, testing her reaction.
My focus?
My breathing, my sensitivity to her, how I use myself
Always her. Her. And me.

Now I feel her all around me
Caressing my body
Easing my mind
Less and less resistant
More open to me
Wanting me, through her
My aim?
Connection, harmony with her
Always we. Oui?

She is my meditation
Water on my brain
She stimulates me.
My mantra is more
Stroking her
Length after length
Relentless,
Again,
Always repeating.

Resistance, minimal now
Exquisite awareness
I breathe with her
My heart beats for her
I am higher, lighter
I am alive.
Always satiated with her.

She is my release
Will she release me?
My thoughts turn
She clings to me
A last attempt to suck me back into her arms

I climb out and creep away
Droplets of her on my skin
Separate we are less graceful
More ordinary
Just a swimming pool and a regular guy.